Stumping me over and over again

I once told a friend that I could never continue modelling because I didn't want to be hungry all the time.
She then said to me "But you are hungry all the time, everyday you get out there and push yourself, I don't know what it is that you want, money, fame, success, whatever it is, you haven't found it"
Hearing her tell me that I was hungry all the time stumped me and it continues to stump me again and again.
Every morning I wake up and I go to work with thoughts of how to improve things.
It seems like the only thing I am hungry for it to constantly make things better and more efficient.

Sorry I haven't been blogging or humorous lately.

I'm undergoing a sort of midlife (quarter life?) crisis which started late last year.

My work continues to be better than ever though.
But now the pressure is on, I feel like someone somewhere has a polaroid of me tacked to a wall labeled "One to watch" to see if I continue to be successful or have some kind of nervous breakdown and bomb.

I'm very tired but happy and that's all that really matters.